So here I sit, starting a new diet again yesterday. Since turning 16, this will officially be my start of the 4th time I try to loose significant weight. This is not counting the many weak attempts I have done ever so often. But this is one of those times where I truly realize how far out of control I have gone and how much it is affecting my life.
Let's examine all the ways in which I affects my daily life.
1) My family life. I can no longer run. My kids are active and want to ride their bikes or kick the soccer ball around and I am out of breath after about 2 minutes. When I want to help my son learn to play soccer better or have riding bikes together and I am unable to do that for long periods of time at this point.
2) My personal life with my husband. I don't feel good about my body and so I act as sloppy as I look. I have starting wearing his shirts in the evening with my sweats becuase they are more roomy. How un-sexy is that? My 2 year old daughter is even commenting..."mommy wear daddy's shirt?" Not good.
3) My work life. I don't feel I get the respect I deserve or want when I look sloppy. I am not one of those people who have settled into overweight life and have purchased a ton of nice looking, nice fitting larger size clothes. I instead have stayed in denial and squeezed every last bit of space in my clothes that are one or two sizes too small. Swearing to myself that I will start a diet soon and will be back in my nicer looking, smaller size clothing soon. So I look like crap everyday at work and I a sure this affects how people interact with me. I am a little grumpy too. And as Laura Linney said on her show "the big C"...You can either be fat and happy or a skinny bitch, you can't be a fat bitch, it does not work that way!"
So here I am, starting with a real attempt to be a Skinny Bitch again!
Current weight 193.8 lbs. Best weight since I was married 155 lbs. Worst weight since being married 223 lbs. Current Goal 154 lbs!
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